End Of My Ramadan Fast On Summer Solstice

Yesterday, June 21, 2017 was Summer Solstice (Along with June 20), the longest days of the year for the Northern Hemisphere and the start of Cancer. Being a Gemini, I wanted to start off my Gemini year with the strengthening of my body, mind, heart and soul so I joined the Ramadan fast. This was my first fast and I definitely feel the positive results of it.

First I want to say that I do not participate in the Islamic religion. I joined this fast because of my own reasons and as it went along I stuck with it for a couple other reasons, like that I felt my ability to focus getting stronger. All my energy went to what needed it the most and to what best utilized my time.

Still in mind

if I choose it.

Accepting of self,

the creative director

of my life.

Aware of my own

control, powered by the will of

spirit intuition.

It is so clear, my intentions

I am everything and I am rooted

I am curious and ageless

I am guilty and precious

I am the dark mother

I am the burning bird of creation

I have changed my name.

I am.

Thank you.

End of my Ramadan fast



Day 20


two more days to go.

my life is what i make it,

there is pressure on a god.

expectations are detrimental,

not allowing room for breath,

not allowing room for truth.

expectations consume me,

making my choices be heavy chores,

second-guessing what i don’t have control of.

some days

my intuition gets lost in an undetectable place.

i miss her when my mind runs wild.

all brain, no body

i feel weak.

i look for answers in the


areas of life i was planning on leaving behind.


release them.


lounge in a pool of darkness,

emerge as the sun.

June 18, 2017

Day 20 of my Ramadan fast

Day 10

another day

another lesson as an

observer of

human kind.

we lack discipline,

and this causes most problems

inside of ourselves.

it almost seems against

our nature to

forcefully remove

what we want from

our lives.

the craving is a

physical pull.

it is transportation

to the fabricated memory

of a happier time.

we always have the ability

to walk the path of contentment.

this does not come easily

but it does come with control.

we have the power of choice.

June 7, 2017

Day 10 of my Ramadan fast

What We Carry.

you are the color purple.

a sense of royalty, you know,

i walk taller

not in your shadow,

but in your secrets and whispers

we share in crowded places.

inside jokes inside our own

house of energy,

gracefully avoiding

other’s air of

anxiety and miscommunication.


when i was six years old i wanted to be indiana jones, an individual savior. only i to live in the praise and glory of the accomplishments i risked my life for. i was an only child, selfishly avoiding commitment and long term love. i was a cowboy, a spy, a villain, a traveler, in order to not thrive too close to anyone. i grew up tough, but not rough enough to grind empathy out of my character traits. i feel you, my partner. are you willing to stroll off into the sun with me?


i am the gold.

and so is everything i touch.

we are golden.


December 30, 2016.